been a while since i last went out alone with my brother. so yesterday i decided to head over to Jurong point with my brother and do some shopping with him.

we went to a shop, and happened to meet one of my primary school friend there. while my brother was trying on his clothes, i had a short chat with this primary school friend. and it came to a shock to me that, he is married (which i knew it sometime ago but slipped off my mind).

he is 22 (going 23 this year) and his wife is 4 years his senior. i asked him why did he decide to get settled down so young and he told me he did this to give his wife assurance. his wife waited for him to finish his national service and he felt that he should so something about as soon as he ORD. how mature his thinking is being compared to peeps of our age!

so Kok Hau, i wish you and your wife a blissful marriage! (i know you will never read this though, LOL)

commitment is something which i know i can never handle it well (maybe for now) or something which always leave a question mark in my mind.

maybe it is a topic which i dun wanna touch about it.

i wished to love and to be loved in return... but for me to love again, it will never be easy again. the memory haunts, the scar is there. few weeks ago, i thought i climbed out of that hole again.but never did i know, it was just an empty shell. i'm back down inside, waiting for the perfect hands to help me out. i'm not sad, no worries. i just wanna blog it out thats all. haha!