so when it comes to a point whereby, you have nowhere to go to, you decide to isolate yourself and be alone for a period of time to think of what you wanna do.

the more i thought of my future, the more confusing i get. what do i really want in life? something great? or just a stable income which will be able to support me all my life?

i always feel miserable whenever i see my peers doing well in their work and i'm still nowhere to be found. i wish i had some kind of self responsibility so that i can stay in that area for long.

i tot i could stay for quite some time with my previous company, but too bad, it was not meant to be. i always tot of myself being a hard hearted person whenever i come to a decision making. i guess i'm wrong in this area. i'm contradicting myself each time i made a career switch. sighh

now i'm regretting not studying hard during school times and everywhere now is all about qualifications.

i had now reached to a point where i can turn no where. i know i am still young but i dun wanna leave a bad CV for my future.

i had been keeping to myself these few days. i dun feel like talking. haha! i'm not emo-ing, so no worries. =))


i had been playing badminton lately and now my old injury is acting up. so pain that whenever i walk, i look like i am lame. i hope it will recover soon because i had signed myself up for badminton at my house here de CC. maybe i'm inspired by the oylumpics which had ended recently ba. for a moment, i missed that kind of competition feel in badminton court. i'm not a good player, but i just hope maybe it can be added in some parts of memories during my younger years. hahaha!

i'm currently working temp for a friend. "bao ka liao char bor" ahahahahaha!
its nice of him to offer me a job because he does not wanna see me slack at home and rot all day long.=)

this is one of such post which will be up here for like dunno how long before my next update. LOL