what do you want me to do then you will be happy with me? what is that everything i do or i had decided, you seem to have objections? i'm old enough to know whats good and whats bad. i know you are worried for my future, but look, aint i worry myself too? i dun wish to see myself a failure in the future either, i wanna give u a good life, have a car to drive you around spore for good food, i wanna have a stable income enough for u, enough for everyone in the family, i wanna lead a group of people for a better success for the company i work in and there are so many things i wanna do, for you, for brother and for myself.

i had already put studies apart. and what is it that u want? u dun wan me study because this course is expensive and thus, i am reconsidering about everything again. how can u expect me to find a job in such short notice just because u wan me earn for myself? i dun wan waste my time doing things i dun like and ended up i'm wasting time over there, hence creating a lot of trouble. i wanna think properly so that i will not make the wrong choice. i already wasted farking too many time le. i dun wan anymore. u get it?

i'm farking fed up about many things that are happening around me now. can dun add on to my problems a not? my mood is farking bad le and i dun wish to quarrel with u and ended up causing u hurt and angry over me. i tried to keep my cool but because u are my mum, i took all in with my patience... u know i had grown up already, so please.. please give me freedom to do what i want can?

sighh...