sometimes i think god is being cruel to my family. why take my dad away so early from us?
yet at times, i think god is being fair. he took away my father and yet gave us anything that we wished for. i am contradicting right?

all these, blessing in disguise?

my family is not a rich family but we still can make end meets. but given the financial status now, my family cant afford to send my brother to university after completing his national service. how could anyone in this world can say my brother university fees, we can actually loan from bank? how do we pay back? mortage our flat? which is the only valuable thing we are left with? i know your company has its own rules and regulations for this compensation thing, but why not put yourself in our shoes and think about it? my dad's live only worth that much? in fact, my dad's live is priceless, money cant buy everything. can u use the money and buy back my mum's happiness? my mum's lifetime partner? if it wasnt that man's reckless driving, will we ever need your help? think again, how do u call a family when it is not complete?

i attended Meiyi's wedding last sunday. seeing her dad shelter her with the umbrella from her place to the bridal car, makes me think of my dad. (hey ger, not saying its a bad thing ar. just miss my father =) no offends de. =D) when the day i get married, who will be the one who shelter me with the umbrella? who will be the one who cover me with the veil? how happy my father will be like? this day will never come... i know... but i know my father will be very happy looking above me on this very day. if he is still around....

dun worry people. i am fine. =) only recently things crop out on the legal side and everything is messed up. i'm just blogging my thoughts.

i'm still sick. no good.