i had been in bed for the whole day today. too sick to do anything. feeling very weak, hope i can recover in time for meiyi's big day. still feeling very horrible now. but i still wanna blog about this before it slips off my mind.

recently been told by a friend how much one can actually changed. everyone changes, i know. but when the changes had became so big that everyone had been talking behind each others' back, it gets on our nerves.

being materialistic is normal. but becoming over materialistic when you are not one before, is definitely a question to everyone. brand-consious to me is very normal, because friends around me influenced me at times and i tend to get tempted easily. i will not go around telling people, "sorry, ur stuff is cheapo, i'm not going to go for it. free give me, i also dun wan." its like WTH right? things cheap, means dun need money buy? usable and nice can liao wad. for example, i like to buy watches, but do i get all the branded watches for my collection? i can say no, not at all. i get cheap watches as long as they are nice. not because of prices. yes i admit, my LV wallet is not totally paid by myself, my mum sponsored me a share too. not what people had used to say, "wow, ur dad passed away liao hor, u fu*king rich hor?" i used my own money that i earned and mum sponsored me because she strike 4D, not i forced her to. it just happen at the right time and i could say i was just lucky. frankly speaking, do u all think i'm showing off my things here? i think i am not. i bought it at my own expense.

if u had never buy BRANDED stuff for urself before, dun go telling people u dun wan cheapo things. think before u say anything. i will keep quiet if u had ever spent a few hundreds dollars for urself for a single thing in a branded shop. otherwise, dun show off. it will only make people to look down on u even more.

and dun keep telling people u are so poor when in fact u are saving more than any of ur peers now. anyone with eyes can see for themselves. if u are really that poor, dun keep asking people to buy u branded stuff. because u are poor! since u are poor, u will dress poorly, and whatever BRANDED stuff u had in hand, people will just say, "look, dress so poorly, that bag confirm is fake de." blah blah blah. then whats the point of getting it when whatever reactions or responds u get are all negative?

why do i blog abt this out of a sudden? past events happened recently, really caused me a headache plus i am sick now, so i tend to think a bit more. just random thoughts. not pinpointing anyone or anything. =) i am still not that mature enough to pinpoint anyone. i am just trying to sound mature!!! hahahahahahahahahahahhaha

i sound like a man now... damn...