another big decision i gonna make. for the sake of my family.

promised to blog about this for some friend of mine sometime ago. finally get mu butt down to start writing for her. if not, she will eat me up. =D

To Meiyi,

i am still not used to calling you by your christian name, still prefer to call you as Meiyi. time really flies faster than i thought. you are stepping into a new phase in your life in just a few days' time. and another new phase in a few months' time. how are you feeling? excited? nervous? anxious? in fact i felt very happy for you when you told me you are getting married. you are my first friend around me to get marry and i am glad that you asked me to be in your sisters' group because i never thought that you will ask me as you got many good friends surround you as well. imagine those times when we hardly ever contact each other after primary school or should i say never even contact at all, up to 6 freaking long years and it was through friendster, we managed to get in touch again. 6 long years without any contacts, we still managed to crap and gossip so much when we meet up for coffee sessions, all these indeed surprise me a lot. its so amazing how you always bully me and i will just make a face and ignore it. haha! and i guess during mahjong sessions, you are definitely be pissed off by my "unfeeding" actions, right? what to do? must have fate de ma. ok la.. think i crap enough of the not-so-important- points above liao. now the main part. stepping into marriage is what everyone will be going through and you are way ahead of me. it is not easy to maintain a relationship without 2 hands clapped together. you are really one lucky girl who managed to find someone who love you as much as you love him too. it is not easy for the right one to cross your path in life at certain point of time, and i'm glad both of you caught hold of each other tightly now. last but not least, i wish you a blissful marriage ahead and may the both of you stay happy forever.

PS: will you train a mahjong kid? LOL

i had been in bed for the whole day today. too sick to do anything. feeling very weak, hope i can recover in time for meiyi's big day. still feeling very horrible now. but i still wanna blog about this before it slips off my mind.

recently been told by a friend how much one can actually changed. everyone changes, i know. but when the changes had became so big that everyone had been talking behind each others' back, it gets on our nerves.

being materialistic is normal. but becoming over materialistic when you are not one before, is definitely a question to everyone. brand-consious to me is very normal, because friends around me influenced me at times and i tend to get tempted easily. i will not go around telling people, "sorry, ur stuff is cheapo, i'm not going to go for it. free give me, i also dun wan." its like WTH right? things cheap, means dun need money buy? usable and nice can liao wad. for example, i like to buy watches, but do i get all the branded watches for my collection? i can say no, not at all. i get cheap watches as long as they are nice. not because of prices. yes i admit, my LV wallet is not totally paid by myself, my mum sponsored me a share too. not what people had used to say, "wow, ur dad passed away liao hor, u fu*king rich hor?" i used my own money that i earned and mum sponsored me because she strike 4D, not i forced her to. it just happen at the right time and i could say i was just lucky. frankly speaking, do u all think i'm showing off my things here? i think i am not. i bought it at my own expense.

if u had never buy BRANDED stuff for urself before, dun go telling people u dun wan cheapo things. think before u say anything. i will keep quiet if u had ever spent a few hundreds dollars for urself for a single thing in a branded shop. otherwise, dun show off. it will only make people to look down on u even more.

and dun keep telling people u are so poor when in fact u are saving more than any of ur peers now. anyone with eyes can see for themselves. if u are really that poor, dun keep asking people to buy u branded stuff. because u are poor! since u are poor, u will dress poorly, and whatever BRANDED stuff u had in hand, people will just say, "look, dress so poorly, that bag confirm is fake de." blah blah blah. then whats the point of getting it when whatever reactions or responds u get are all negative?

why do i blog abt this out of a sudden? past events happened recently, really caused me a headache plus i am sick now, so i tend to think a bit more. just random thoughts. not pinpointing anyone or anything. =) i am still not that mature enough to pinpoint anyone. i am just trying to sound mature!!! hahahahahahahahahahahhaha

i sound like a man now... damn...

i think i am blessed with a good family. mum, dad and didi. since dad passed away, my bonds with my mum and brother get even closer than before. probably its a blessing in disguise and i am sure dad will be very pleased. its going to be 2 years soon. time passed so quickly. wonder how is my late father doing at his happy paradise. =)

life had been aimless for me for the past months and i am glad that now i beginning to have some goals. i dunno whether these goals will be achievable but i hope there are some results shown at the end of it. be it my career, my studies, or whatever things i am doing now, i want to see the results. actions speaks louder than words. this time i will prove u people wrong.

i will achieve my dreams. =D

i'm totally voiceless now. i tried to "gek" my voice out but to no avail. damn. i dun like this feeling. i cant talk at all!!!

argghhhh!

whats the point?

=(

i'm back from bangkok. in fact very tired now. was unpacking my stuff earlier on and now waiting for my hair to dry and i will be off to bed. working later... =(

this trip was damn fun! all the jokes, laughters, food, shopping, etc etc makes all of us so tired. companion were great and i hope everyone did enjoy themselves as much as i do. and i missed my family a lot. my mum, my brother. without seeing them for 6 days, really make me miss them a lot.

i am lazy to go into details right now. but i will try remember bits by bits on my next entry. most unforgetable moment was that i saw my HANDSOME guy in the trans show at Asia Hotel. omg!!! he is still as handsome as ever. i think my peeps were shocked to see me that excited. but really la, cant be helped. ahhhhhhhhhhh! suddenly i "triggered" myself about him again. damn! can i get him back to singapore? omg! i will be glad if i can be his tour guide if he is coming to singapore... *dreaming*

and also the butt crack thingy. damn. i'm not going to go into details about these. only make myself paiseh. LOL

anyway, my eyes are closing already. will update soon with pics when i received them.
good night people. i miss all of you!

attended my brother's POP today at tekong. was raining since last night and was so worried that the POP will be held indoors instead of outdoors. but luckily was that, the rain stopped as soon as we reach Pasir Ris for the shuttle bus.



everyone cheered when all the graduates marched out to the parade square. i dunno why but feel a sense of... hmm.. i dunno how to put it in words. it's just so touching. like my tears almost well up in my eyes. cant believe 3 months of training had passed for my brother in a blink of eyes. when he just enlisted, mum worried this worried that, scare my brother cant take the hardship because she had heard many people telling her how hard life is in army and whatsoever shit. but my brother proved those people wrong. mum was glad and i am happy.



my brother did a wonderful job! cheers. though he marched a little slower when he was walking past the audience pics will be uploaded when my brother sent me. =D



just finished packing what is needed for my trip to bangkok tml. this time learnt my lesson liao, i really bring a huge luggage this time. hehe. but somehow feel really bad telling my mum another story though... but... what's done cannot be undone. i will tell her the truth wheni'm back. no choice. sorry mummy. =(



so there wont be any post till i'm back next tues. but i guess my readers will all be at bangkok with me too. so more or less, makes no difference even i can update a not. haha!



because i will be at bangkok on the 17th,

i wish kangkangemily a happy 22nd birthday in advance first. and hope you will enjoy ur first trip on air plane with us and all the shoppings we are going to have!

PS: i think i look damn cute in that pic. haha!

2 more days and i will be on leave for 1 week!

how time flies! it's now march already. 2008 is yet another fast year. and so much things had happened within these few months only.

be it good or bad, it had all gone through.

so much things i wanna say to my friends but i dunno where to start and how to start. been coping myself at home everyday. even mahjong doesnt seem to interest me anymore. and i mean it. friends asked me out and i really dun feel the mood to hang out at all. must be the damn weather lately which makes me sleepy the whole time. haha!

i'm on MSN with someone recently and we talked about many things. haha! feelings redeveloped again. LOL it is definitely a nice feeling i can say. i miss you! but i will only see you when i am back from thailand. thats like so long to go... ahhhhh!!!!
=P

just changed thai baht at jurong point. all big notes. wonder how should i start using sia.. haha!

congrats to my brother who had done very well for his A levels.

good job bro! you really do our family proud!!

MUACKS

i wish for thai trip to come faster and ends slower...

1 more week! yeah!

i almost murdered someone in office today.

was damn pissed off that i almost vomited blood.

its the first time i ever raised my voice in the office.

but no worries, i'm fine now. vented my anger somewhere else liao. LOL




maybe huiting was right. i just dunno how to love anymore.
letting go is the choice.
sad but life goes on. hope you will cheer up soon!
it hurts to see you like this...

my friends like to call me by "huifi" not "huifen". i wonder why.





anyway, i cant believe that i can make these faces. damn...






i think i look like a man... sigh..

sorry peeps. mood was really bad during mahjong session last night.

no more next time! promise* =)