i used to have my "qin ai de Cute ge" looking like this below.

but i dunno what happen out of a sudden, he became like this.

see? my "cute ge" become "cute jie" liao. sigh....

had been eating very sinful meals for the past few days and causes my throat not to be very good. but its really great to hang out with good friends.

been thinking about what i want in a relationship nowadays. i realised that 我已经什么都不要了. i learnt from mistakes and i really dun wan anything now anymore. its really nice to be cared by someone who likes you and the feeling is great. i had never experience this before and i am still getting used to it. but come to think of it again, i am selfish to just enjoy this feeling and neglected the other party's feelings. i dun wanna lead him on yet at the same time, i scare i will hurt him. i'm not perfect, i shouldnt be choosing. but when it comes to feelings, u can never control it. i'm afraid of getting hurt again and therefore i know being hurt isnt a good feeling. and i really dun wanna hurt this person. my heart is numbed. whatever he had done for me so far, had touched me but not my heart. i cant accept a relationship just because he is nice to me. the feelings has to be there. i dunno how to open my mouth to say this to him. but i know this day will come somehow. i hope friends around me will not blame me. and i know u people want the best for me as well. i cant lie to myself anymore.