just finished watching a taiwanese idol drama show recommended by my brother. sometimes i wish things are as simple as it is. especially towards the topic "love".

in the show, love each party had for each other is really simple and sweet and i know in real life, its not going to be easy. i cant force love. no matter how hard i try to avoid, the more i will come across it. i really tried.

the below sentence is quoted from emily's blog:

waD is touChed? waD is thank yoU? waD is i will always remember u? waD is i'm alwayS here? waD is thanX for beinG here? waD is i knOw hOw u feel?
when all we neeD is... " I need u and plS know that i do love you TOO..."
simPle worDs to expreSs it all...

emily is right. i think i should do some soul searching. how good i am and how nice i am, i still cant get into that special place in your heart. everything i had done are all my first time. i did everything whole heartedly. i never once complain. why? because its my own will doing these. i dun wan anything back in return and yet i expect something back in return. i dunno what i really want. i thought looks wasnt an issue all along, but i think its something at the end of the day. no matter how good a person's heart is, looks still counts. oh well, who cares about how a fat ger feels anyway?

i sms you not because i want you to pity me, i just wanna say how i feel. this is me. never had i been so straightforward to any guys before. haha. who cares anyway? i had this on myself. who ask me be backside itchy and tell you i like you in the 1st place? i brought these on myself. so blame who? myself. =)

i really dunno how you feel towards me. i dare not ask because i already know myself what your answer will be. and i know u had always hinted me "we are good friends".

i'm beginning to feel the pain. though its not as hurting as before, but i am still hurt.

no point forcing.
no point thinking so much.
no point doing so much.
no point being sad.
no point to know so much.

=(


i'm fine after posting all these.