i need chocolates!!!!!!

many many chocolates!!!

any kind soul around to get for me? LOL



today i asked a friend of mine who this special someone was to him out of my curosity and not jealousy hor? i was really being just a busybody, hope u dun mind. =)

i got his reply. and it will be kept within me. LOL

and i guess everyone in their hearts have their special someone. i do have a special someone in my heart as well, but to be exact, i've got 3. greedy am i? but all human beings are selfish in nature. it cant be blamed at all.

everyone of them stands a special place in my heart. even if it will be memories, at least there isnt any regrets.

even though i hit alan hard in his face with my hurtful words, those words i said, do hurt myself too. i never tell anyone much about this because i realised its all in the past now.
its all about love. i never loved sum1 so much in my life before. i dun always use the word "love" because i feel it is a very strong word for liking a person. till i met alan. the 1st man in my life i gave my everything to. the 1st person in my life who taught me how to love. those times were the most happy moments i ever had in my entire life. i just loved him.

that day i really dunno what came over me. i felt so suffocated. everything was like cramped inside me. i dunno where to vent my emotions on. in the end, i chose u. i shouted everything out. i cried. i was angry. i was sad. but my heart felt lighter. i finally did something that i thought all along i couldnt do it.

i'm sorry. i know you will never get to read this. but still, i wanna apologise to you.
you are still 1 of the special someone in my heart. i will never erase the happy memories we had together in the past. Dear...













i went IKEA just now. with melvin and joanne who joined us a little later. wanted to get something to hang all my watches but didnt find anything. was rather disappointed. luckily melvin was around, if not i guess i would have bought things that i shouldnt be buying at all. LOL
thanks SISTA!

talked about many things just now. so fun. he kept telling me abt the thailand trip, making me feel so damn excited about it. and wish for time to pass faster and when it reach 1st nov, the time will go slower. ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!

oh ya, time to go get my stuff done now. gd nite people!
and please tag more often for those who read my blog. thanks ar! muacks!