i went comex yesterday. crowd was very bad. so many people. i realised everyone is so kiasu on sales especially last day of the sales. again, i spent some money. bought a voice recorder for my lecture class and 2 notebook cooler fans for my bro and my laptop.

on leave today because my throat feels dry and also i need to do some touch up on my project. luckily its done now. and i can sleep for a while later before my lesson starts.

went over to grandma's place in the morning. everytime i dread myself going there. i dun like to see her but not because i hate her, i just hate the sight of my uncle. my grandma and grandpa both in their 70s and yet they have to suffer with my uncle. not that my mum dun wanna help them. but because if help them once, my uncle will know we forever will help them. we did have the thought of bringing both the elders over to stay for good but my mum dun wan my uncle to follow. he is the worst man i had even seen. yet i can do nothing. mum always says i'm still young, i cant do anything. but i'm already 21 and i had been through a lot. and i had definitely grown up. i dun understand why at times, my mum just wont listen to what i said. hasnt me been a filial daughter all these while? i wonder how and i wonder why.

hasnt i been good enough?

why can't human beings stay truthful to their loved ones? why are there broken hearts everywhere? cant we be friends even we are no longer together? just because i was merely just typing in my personal message in MSN, saying i am clearing non-chatters in my MSN list, u asked me to clear u? because ur gf said she is jealous? what has it got to do with her? u went to her because i cant spend time with you, so i let you go. i tried my best to help you regardless of what had happened. but what did i get in return? NOTHING. what u used to say u love me or sort of bullshit, are all what? PLAIN lies? i nv know a almost-3-years-relationship feelings can be faded so fast in a single night. i was heartbroken then. finally when i learnt that you are gone in my life, i realised i had been foolish all these while. and because of you, i'm afraid to fall in love. till now, maybe i have feelings for someone else, i just cant allow myself to get into the pit again and get myself hurt again. i only want to keep u in my memories but u aint allowing me to do so. what do u really want from me?



had been coming home late these few days and now i am like a walking zombie. haha. but i had fun. i'm enjoying this feeling!

in case my blog is boring, i had some pictures i took on friday and saturday nights.



bucket of beer
huge foot, small foot. LOL
nice hair! not mine la.
i like this pic sia. so nice! I put it as my HP wallpaper, susu dun mind hor?

flowers
see! got priest wear my necklaces (gift from aileen)
pretty ladies!!!