i love gers talk. i love talking to my ger frenz about anything. yes, anything!

had so much fun earlier on with bird and emily, laughed till their tears almost came out. LOL

and they said my room seem much spacious now. haha. can mahjong in my room le if got air con. LOL

my brother asked his frenz over to celebrate my mummy's birthday today! so did i! my frenz helped sing song for my mummy. hope my mummy wont be sad anymore. and of cos, wishing her healthy all the way! mummy, sheng ri kuai le!! MUACKS

st james was fun last night too! i slept for a few hours and went to work in a sleepy mode. luckily my day passed very fast because had been quite busy the whole day. which is good la.

LOL

actually i am tired but i came to update my blog because i scare my readers will delete me away from their list. LOL

would you be there...

If I were blue, would you be there for me,
And whisper in my ears that's ok.
Would you stand by me, let me hold you tight,
And say you love me one more time.

If I feel good, would you slow dance with me,
And touch my lips with tender loving care,Would you die for me, would you run with me,
And never look back..

Would you be there to love, to be with me?
Would you swear that your love is always true?
Would you say that you'll always be the one,to take my breath away?

Would you be there to love, to be with me?
Would you swear that your love is always true?
Would you say that you'll always be the one,to take my breath away?

Would you be there..

If i'm away, would you still think of me,
And wish that you could hold me now,
Would you die for me, would you run with me,
All the way..

Would you be there to love, to be with me?
Would you swear that your love is always true?
Would you say that you'll always be the one,to take my breath away?

Would you be there to save my soul tonight,
Would you swear that your love is always true?
Would you say that you will always be there,
To kiss my pain away...

Would you be there to love, to be with me?
Would you swear that your love is always true?
Would you say that you'll always be the one,to take my breath away?

Would you be there to save my soul tonight,
Would you swear that your love is always true?
Would you say that you will always be there,
To kiss my pain away...

Would you be there? for me...

why do us gers likes to get hurt in a relationship?

purely because we all tend to love the guy too much.

but why do guys often choose to take our love for granted?

purely because they know we never have the guts to let them go.

Love? Relationship? BGR? Unhappiness? Tears? What for?

why do we like to get ourselves in all these shit when we joyly well know what kind of person they are after being together for sometime?

do we really need to survive thru love?

i'm not saying i wont fall in love for the rest of my life or whatsoever shit. i know falling in love have its good points too. but recently what my friend had been thru had let me know how guy behave before wooing the ger and after getting the ger by his side.

gers often are the ones who lose out at the end of relationship but do we all want it like that? No!
we love them too much that we wanna let them go. we would rather ourselves get hurt than to see the guy unhappy.

it sucks to see my friend getting very upset over this and wasting her tears for someone not even worht a single drop of it!
i dun understand why.

it makes me wonder does true love really exists? purely just true love?

its hard for me to fall in love again.

right now, everything to me doesnt matter anymore. i'm sick and tired of it.

everything, yes.

the feeling of being alone is back again...

maybe i'm moody or whatever shit it is, that makes me feel this way. but i dun care.

and one more thing, i'm not going out with anyone if i'm the "extra".

so count me out if everyone's a couple.

its amazing to see how people had changed over the years.

anyway graduation ceremony was great. my ITE classmates were great too. everyone enjoyed themselves today. i'm sure during our movie session, everyone did enjoy too.

we watched "blades of glory". nice funny lame show. LOL

thumbs up!

hmmm. i did an incredible thing today. i bought 5 watches for myself today. =X

dun look at me as if i'm a freak!

in fact, i'm really a FREAK! LOL

mum scolded me siao. brother said i can joyly well open a watch shop. LOL

but i still love all my watches. =)

time to sleep people. muacks

i may not have known you very well but still i know who you are.

it's really very saddening to hear about this news.

you will still live in everyone's heart.

RIP, dreek.


life is fragile.

taking the earliest ferry tml in batam. tired.

my room is neat and tidy now!

nice room, nice furniture, nice fenz!!

How To Know When It's Over
by Bob Narindra

There are few things in life that are harder on a person than the time when they realize that the love they have worked so hard at, and spent so much time on, is finally over. For some, this realization is a complete shock and for others, they have seen the writing on the wall for some time now.

Breakup signs are often very difficult to spot, primarily because the people involved often do not want to admit that the relationship has failed. And unless something comes along and hits them in the face, telling them it's over; the natural tendency is to try to work through the problems.

This happens more so when the couple have been together for a while.

The question that remains, therefore, is at what point do you really know that it's over?

First lets start with the glaring signs that the relationship is over:

1. You catch your partner in the act of having an unforgivable affair.

2. Your partner uses physical violence against you.

3. You argue non-stop about everything. You can't agree on anything.

The above are obvious, any of the three things occurring above, ESPECIALLY NUMBER TWO, are sure signs that the relationship is coming to an, often abrupt, end.
There are however some other signs to look out for. Sometimes it is necessary to accept the painful fact that the relationship you are in is just not good for you. While I am usually the staunchest advocate for the "you can make it through anything as long as you have love" club, even I have to admit that there are situations where one or both of the partners are just better off apart.

The most common instance of this is when one partner is INTENTIALLY holding the other partner back. When two people have separate dreams and goals, friction can occur, especially if neither of them are willing to compromise. In some instances, however, jealousy leads one of the partner's to be excessively controlling of the other. In these situations, if they are UNRESOLVABLE, it is better to leave than stay.

Other reasons to leave include:

You realize that you don't love your partner.

You find yourself thinking more and more about how good single life was.

You realize that your partner doesn't love you, but is with you because they don't want to hurt you.

You have no common interests or goals.

You find that you cannot stand their annoying little habits, and they won't change.

You find it impossible to be yourself around your partner.

Your partner cuts you down, makes you feel bad about yourself, and constantly devalues your goals and ideas.

Under no circumstances should anyone stay in a relationship that is bad for them, just because they feel that being in a relationship, even a bad one, is better than being alone.

as you all should know that i irc often right? seriously i got no problem meeting a group of strangers at the start and then becoming good friends with them. but the incident today really freak me out. maybe i am bad saying all these but it cant be helped. but come to think of it again, i will laughed at myself for what had happened.

there is this guy i chatted with online. he told me he was 28 years old. let's call him B. i wasnt really keen chatting with him because all our chats were kinda dull. then he wanted to meet me. alright, since he was DRIVING, i said okay sure no problem. i never seen his picture before. so i imagined him the worse i can ever imagine. and so, i didnt pin on much hopes meeting any good looking guys oso.

so i waited and waited. then he came.




from far away.............. i saw a boar.



since i agreed on meeting, i got into his car. i didnt look him straight into his eyes at all. and guess what the first thing he said about me?







"WOW, you are quite FAT for a 21 years old hor?"

WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH THIS GUY? size is differentiate with age de meh? when i heard it, i turned and faced him. he wasnt what he said at all. oh my freaking god!!! he was oso FAT loh. he said i look fair in my pic and why do i look so dark in person? and he, himself wasnt better even!!! he got a fat belly and a freaking hole-ly face!!! and he dun even look like he is fucking 28 years old loh!!! he looks even older than my late father!!! and he is there saying sarcastic remarks about me!!! i was angry. i was furious. i wasnt hurt about his words and i was really angry.

so i just smiled at him and immediately sms michelle for rescue.

so i lied. lied that my office need me back urgently and michelle had to "act" as my manager who called. damn. luckily it works. and off i ran to get a cab and off i went to meet michelle.

this was my nightmare even when i wasnt sleeping. damn it.


i know i am bad. but like i said before, i may not be the best ger in this world but still, i got my rights to choose. u cant blame me for doing that. he was the one who started it.

oh my freaking god!!

i will really change my mind abt online people now. FREAK!

its mothers' day again!


i took my first pay and so i brought mum and my bro to swensens at jurong point for dinner.


dinner was filling. hope my mum is happy. heez.


my brother insisted buying an ice cream cake. so ya we did loh. nice cake!


in exchange, my brother bought me a hp strap. $29.90. thanks bro! muacks!





i may not be the best ger in the world neither am i a slim ger, but still, i got the right to choose. my past experience had caused me enough pain. i dun wanna experience the same thing again.


as for now, i really wanna concentrate on my work and my studies in july.




some pics i took earlier outside swensens.

i received a comfirmation letter from my company this afternoon which shock the hell out of me.

it had only been a month since i started work. and within a month, they actually confirmed me to be their permanent staff. i am so happy. i'm glad that my performance did not disappoint them at all. plus, there is an increment in my pay as well.

i'm happy. my mum happy for me too. my frenz too.

i will definitely work hard now. even harder than before.

went vivocity earlier on with sheri. had swensens. sinful indeed. and i am spending money out of sudden again. damn it. i must hold back! LOL

anyway, life for me now is like, work, come home, sleep, weekend mahjong. thats about my life now. boring isnt it? but what to do?

i got my pay yesterday and it was horrible. took too much no pay leave last month. 8 days = $320 gone. but nvm. i will earn it back again de. =)

batam trip soon!!! 19th comes faster!!! i wanna enjoy to the fullest!!!

its time for bed again. gd nite!

a moment of foolishness will cause a lifetime regret...

looking forward to the upcoming batam trip on the 19th.

a getaway from this busy city and to let me seriously think about what i want.

avoiding wont solve anything.

my room is in a big mess.

no, i'm not the one who messed it up.

i'm renovating my room. thats why ya?

all my things are lying on my big bed or in the living room.

i'm sleeping in my mum's room for the time being. LOL got air con somemore!

birthday celebration is over. finally i'm 21...

a long journey ahead...

have u seen why i never update pictures for me blog?

beyond words can describe my happiness. i'm just too happy

i'm glad i got many good friends with me

you people must have spent a bomb. really thanks.

love all of you. =)

thanks everyone who had came my birthday party.

thanks everyone for making this celebration a huge success.

thanks everyone for all the presents i had received.

thanks everyone for laughing with me and not at me.

thanks everyone!!!

i hope ah bird is ok wor. she scared us with her low blood sia!



and i'm a happy ger!!! =)