what is life?

i'm being too emotional these days that i am blogging crap in my own blog. but it can't be helped.

having 2 heartbreaking moments within half a year is terrible.

i had learnt to be strong. stronger than before. but still, the scar is there. by HIM. yes him. although leaving him is good, i still miss him. i still think of the times we had shared together. bad times, good times. i know my feelings for him had faded, but having to see him in a depressing manner, certainly pains me. i wish i am there for him physically and mentally. i hope to help him in some ways, but i can't. i don't have that "some ways" to help him. he has his special someone by his side now. just who am i now to care so much? it will only hurts me more. probably this is fate. he happened to cross my path in my life 2 years back. but for one thing i know, i will never wanna see him holding another ger's hands in front of me. i know then, i will go crazy.


is this really called love?