i had waken up from my sleep last night and i went to my brother's blog to read his entry. tears welled up in my eyes as i read this,

"i guess the most painful thing for me was the loss of my dad. i can still rmb how anxious my mum sounded when she called me to tell me about my dad's incident. i rushed back. everything seems to feel so fake. i thought such things can onli be experienced in tv serials. this has nv been so real before. if i could turn back time, i would have cherished my dad more.i remember everything that i did during the rituals. all the tears shed and weight loss. i miss u papa."

i wished i had cherished my father more. i should have respected him more when he was still around. i wished i had did him proud in whatever things i had done. so many things that i wish i could do for my father, but no longer can i do it anymore.

time flies. its going to be the 7th month that i haven seen my dad. mum dreamt of him last night. she said father put on weight le. haha. must be living well at the other side of the world.

i wish to hug my father again. =(