what would u do when u tot u were almost dying? its so terrible loh.

though i'm feeling better today but still, i was nearly scared to death last night.

in conclusion,



this HAZE really sucks big time



i realised after reading so so so many people's blog, i realised me and my friends are no longer that close anymore. the times we used to spend together in the past were all just the past after all. quarrels, cold wars etc etc happened in secondary schools, u hate me, i hate u, and lots of such craps happened. i had left secondary school for 3 years already. i think i did not contact much of the people i know in secondary school after i graduated. i know not much people like me when i was in secondary school, but i had my fair share of buddies then. it seems, we had drifted apart. no more common topics, no more laughters over the same stuff, no more crapping together. i dun even know wat i am typing now. sucks. i aint got much good friends i guess. *sigh*

as for relationship, my heart is totally dead. for 2 and a half years, i was with him. till my dad passed away and i got no time to accompany him. who do i blame? myself? there are times i told my friends that i dun love him anymore, but deep in me, i know i missed him, i loved him. knowing him having another gf really broke my heart. it was shattered into pieces. i never had such a long relationship before, i really did put in effort to maintain this whole time, but my efforts still went down the drain after all. i guess we were just never meant to be. people, if u see me dating another guy or whatsoever, its not my heart is heal, its just that "i believe there are sum1 better out there for me" kind of stuff u know? i'm not desperate or wat, but if any of you will to think so, then i'm fine with it. coz i dun wanna explain myself anymore. this 1 month, i had tortured myself with many thoughts of him. i no longer wanna be sad and he is out there happy-ing with his new ger. i wanna be happy again.

to him: if u are reading this, i wanna thanks you for coming into my life since 17th Feb 2004. these 910 days was wonderful even though we got lots of misunderstandings. thanks for letting me know what love is like. i never regretted knowing you. the happy moments we shared will always be in my mind. i wish u all the best with ur new ger.


i'm alright (if there are people who truly concerns me).

just whinning for the sake of whinning because i am sick. =)