i'm in the office now typing this entry.

i think i had somehow neglected my blog. LOL but anyway, no one really come reading my blog. =)

i came to realise working office job is never easy. i thought it should be so fun sitting in the office, enjoying the air con, doing what you are supposed to do and that's it. but hell no! there's nothing much for me except making phone calls to many companies to promote my company's products. i'm into telemarketing now. making cold calls everywhere. i dun mean it's not good but i studied wireless technology, and why am i doing all these cold callings? my company deal with wireless security products but its not what i want to do during my attachment. i admit i had learnt a lot of great things here, but well, perhaps or maybe, IT is still not my interest after all. after 2 years in ITE, i begin to wonder where i am heading. i know for sure, after my graduation i won't continue to study anymore and will go into working society. in order to help lessen my mum's burden. i'm not the type who can study so well. i'm so much different from my brother. he is so hardworking, getting good results for his O levels, always getting lots of As, always in the best class and now he is in JC, waiting to go into University after his NS. i wish i had his hardwroking-ness but i dont. i dun have determination to do anything. it sucks. my path towards my future is blur now. where will i go? i never know.



we had lunch together yesterday. it was weird sitting down in front of him eating together without much topics in our mind. he is still the same. never change. the urge of hugging and holding his hands was being controlled. i came to accept the fact, he is no longer mine. letting go is the only choice i guess. =(



on a happier note, its lantern festival today!!! happy a not? the moon very round tonight leh!!! must go see!!!LOL

i broke a record yesterday, making 184 calls from 10am to 4.30pm, li hai ba? i did it! ROFL
and i still got like another 270 more calls to make. damn it. i surf 184 websites in a day just to find that what the other companies are doing. aint i HARDWORKING? LOL



enough of this post. Emily, i updated my rusty blog liao. happy ma? i update for ur sake de leh. =X