Dear Papa,


It's been 2 months since you left us. How are you holding up? Hope you're enjoying your holidays. I wonder what you are doing right now. Most probably relaxing on sofa, smoking your favourite ciggies, and reading wan bao. Just like before. You always liked mama’s coffee. Been a while since I made coffee for you hor? How's the coffee like over there? Are they any better than mama’s?Things sure felt a little different since you left. It certainly felt strange without you. I missed the times when we would wake up really early, you will bring the whole family to Boon Lay for breakfast. Before the dinner, I still called out "Papa, chi. Mama, chi" out of habit. How silly of me! I forgot you're not on the table with us.
Mama has been real stressed out because she doesn't have you around to discuss things. It upsets me sometimes to see her in the state she's in. You know how much Mama misses you. It's been 2 months and Mama still thinks of you every single day. And many times the thoughts of you brought tears to her eyes.

As for me and didi, school is going ok. I’m having school holidays right now. It's a little stressful at first but I find myself getting into the thick of things already. I just need to manage my time better to take care of many things at once.
Don't worry, I'll try my best.To be honest, we didn't quite feel like you're gone sometimes. At times, it feel like you're only gone for a few days overseas and that one day you might come back.

You know, I bump into your friends pretty often these days. They would always speak fondly of you, sharing with me precious memories of you they have. The few of us would chat and laugh happily as we recall the “Chinese idioms” and “analogies” you've taught us. I would chuckle and tell them that your Chinese sucks. It never fails to amaze me how much detail your friends and colleagues can remember about you, right down to which laksa stall was your favourite and where you used to sit in the coffee shops. That's how deeply you've touched their lives. Words you've said to them so long ago still stay fresh in their mind, as if they've only just talked to you last week.

Ahhh... memories. I remember when I was about 4 or 5, I fell asleep in the car once and you carried me to my bedroom. I liked that so much I would always pretend to fall asleep in the car, even on a bright sunny afternoon. It continued on for quite a while. Guess at some point I became too heavy, and you'd have to resort to tapping me on my shoulders to wake me up instead.

Papa, you used to always call home when you're working, asking us if we wanted anything to eat for supper. Our house phone never rings anymore from you. I miss you now papa, why didn't you call me? I want to tell you that I am hungry and misses you a lot, and that you're the best father me and didi could ever dream of.

Anyway, I better stop here now else I might go on forever.

We have fate. And I'm so happy that at one point in our lives, our paths met as father and children. I really hope our paths will meet again in our next lives.

Until we meet again, papa. =) Take care.

Love,
Your cutest daughter Fenz