i ate a uncooked meat just now in school.

but i had a fair share of good food in return of the uncooked meat.

yes. i got a cheesecake in return and it tasted freaking good!! i like it.

but i still like coffeebean cheesecake the best. =)

click here to read my DNA personality report. if u wanna know me better. =)

bACK to my lalaland.

i'm so tired now. and sleepy. i didnt sleep a wink last night.

why?

i played mahjong from 11pm last night till about 12 noon today. my eyes are closing

i'm the big winner! i have to be! coz i simply sat for 12 hours plus to play excluding toilet breaks u know? LOL

sweet 19. amy.


i am fat.







ever wonder when will the day for you to get tied down by cupid's arrow? and spend the rest of your life with your partner?





thinking of the past makes me wonders a lot. *ponders* whatever ba. i can't turn back time after all.





DRIVING IS FUN FUN FUN!

congrats me!!! hurry!!!








WHY?





i'm sick officially. best. fever. headache. damn it.
















ps: serene is a mountain tortoise. (she told me herself) =)

stay away from me, u FUCKING BANANA BISCUIT!!!!



dun provoke me anymore!!! i'm just FUCKING tolerating everything now!!!



KNNBCCB!!!!



u better stop what you are doing now, before i actually KICK your FUCKING ass!!!!!!!!!!!

yet another someone dear to my Papa passed away peacefully on saturday morning.

this is life.

another hard moment for my mum to get through again.

papa, your sister is on her way to meet you.

we miss you

ANGRY!!!!

FUCK THOSE GIRLS OUT THERE WHO TRIED TO GAIN PITY OR SYMPATHY FROM GUYS TO SEDUCE THEM!!! FUCK FUCK FUCK





GO DIE!!!! FUCK YOUR BANANA BISCUIT!!! $^&^*(^**$%^$











*cooling down*

this is an overdue post which i should have posted on tues and not now. LOL.

went to a japanese restaurant for Lin's birthday celebration cum a mini 2/4 class gathering. it was fun fun fun. actually i'm out of words to describe the whole outing. i am damn tired today. i shall let the pics do the talking.


look! our bday ger so happy


the MALE crew


the female crew

we spent a total of $304 there. andrew paid for it shared among 11 of us. each person paid $0 cuz andrew treated ard $30 per person. should go there to try. nice atmosphere. *drools* hungry liao. i shall post some random pics in case it gets boring reading now. =)




hmmm.. i wanted to post some candid shots. but... i dun have any nice and funny ones in my camera. well... sorry. hehe...









on another note. i dun understand why some people wanna commit suicide. must be wondering what the hell i'm talking about right? i tell you guys now. i was out buying some stuff home just now. i saw this car pulling at the roadside. (the road in front of where i stay for those who knows). i thought it was a normal dropping passenger "sign". so i decided not to poke my nose into it too much and i slowly walked to where my lift was. this was when i heard shoutings. i turned around and saw this lady shouting "U HATE ME RIGHT? I SHALL DIE AND LET YOU SEE". and guess wat? this woman open her side of door (she is the driver anyway), and lied down in the middle of the road. WTF was she trying to do? brainless or dumb?

i wanted to shout over "NBZ LA, WAN DIE FUCKING GO FAR FAR DIE. DUN DIE IN FRONT OF WHERE I STAY. KNN"

the woman actually lied down on the road for less than a min. but this 1 min or lesser, could have lots of cars passed by u know? she could haven been smashed to death. so her boyfriend (i assume), the one sitting on the passenger side, came down from the car and started to pull her out and ask her not to disgrace herself in public. he should have done that when that fucking brainless dumb woman shouted she wanted to die.

committing suicide got a lot of ways wad. for FUCK, u wan smash urself flat flat and die? go die in a more peaceful way la. kanna banged car u damn shiok sibo? DUMB.



ok la.. enough of my rants liao. me tired. i mean very tired. nitez.




tata

people changed. disappointed with a friend.

i'm here to blog normally again. =)

shall talk about my badminton camp. it was rather a fun camp i had. not bad except for the sleeping part and meals time. quite sucky in fact. i talked to most of the badminton team mates. not bad. they are all nice people. great knowing them. shall not really elaborate the camp ba. if not everyone will be fall asleep in front of their monitors. LOL

went town earlier on with emily and her dummy. i realised been sometime since i last stepped into town. haha. really a long long time. yet nothing changes. haha. emily bought a belt. i bought nothing. then had burger king and off we went to jurong point.

pampered myself today. happy! did manicure. happy!!! and another happier note. i changed a new phone. hehe.. happy!!! happy!!! happy!!!

no pics for the outings leh... but i shouldn't disappoint people reading my blog.




cute? i look like a guy. poor resolution. coz i am in my room with a dim light.


gonna go sleep le. tml going out to celebrate my dear Lin's birthday. cant wait!!

tata

there are people playing mahjong at my place now. nono, i didn't play. long time no play le. so i am not good at it. =)

i realised i aint good in badminton anymore. =( very sad. i gonna practice more. i wanna be the best in my school.

tired. not enough sleep after sleeping for 17 hours. *yawns*

omg! its my doom day soon!!

wun be around for the next 3 days peeps!!

will be stuck in school, CAMPING!!!

time to sleep in case i cant wake up early tml. tata





and yes!!! can someone please tell me my brother FAT a not???? he is telling me everyday that he is fat. i cant find a single fats on him. damn it.

changed the main picture.

the pic will be up there for sometime. in memory of my Late Father.

yes. i still miss him. so weird not seeing him for such a long time. perhaps it will be longer.

=)

i'm fine. if u dun like to read, then click the cross at the top right hand side corner.










i miss you so, papa!

i rather to be loved than to love.




thanks for telling me you got feel for me. but one relationship of age difference is enough for me from the past. it still haunt me. sorry for saying no. you are nice. but i find myself cant get into another relationship anymore. i'm just too young for you. time will tell the difference.

on the other hand.



i find Zidane very handsome!!!

MUACKS!!

fuck!! zidane kanna sent out for using his head to bang another italian player.

he got a red card!! argh!!





editted** : Italy won the world cup. such a emotional moment sia.. =(

i hereby officially announced that i'm having camping this coming thursday 13th July to 15th July. 3 days 2 nights. congrats me please!

i never like camping. i gonna miss my big big bed. =(





PS: France to WIN tonight please!!!! i bet a lot tonight!

one moment you are good to me, another moment you treat me like an enemy.
haven you messed up my life enough?
what is it that u want from me?
if my dad's death is nothing to you, then fine. just stop bothering me can?
i simply had enough of you.
we no longer had feelings for each other anymore.
why not let go?
our love was the past already.
let it go.
please.

i'm tired.

clubbing is indeed a torture. went devilsbar. vomitted. now headache. me so lousy. LOL

my bottle of chivas still there. who wanna go devils, please ask me along. thanks.

back to lalaland.

Dear Papa,


It's been 2 months since you left us. How are you holding up? Hope you're enjoying your holidays. I wonder what you are doing right now. Most probably relaxing on sofa, smoking your favourite ciggies, and reading wan bao. Just like before. You always liked mama’s coffee. Been a while since I made coffee for you hor? How's the coffee like over there? Are they any better than mama’s?Things sure felt a little different since you left. It certainly felt strange without you. I missed the times when we would wake up really early, you will bring the whole family to Boon Lay for breakfast. Before the dinner, I still called out "Papa, chi. Mama, chi" out of habit. How silly of me! I forgot you're not on the table with us.
Mama has been real stressed out because she doesn't have you around to discuss things. It upsets me sometimes to see her in the state she's in. You know how much Mama misses you. It's been 2 months and Mama still thinks of you every single day. And many times the thoughts of you brought tears to her eyes.

As for me and didi, school is going ok. I’m having school holidays right now. It's a little stressful at first but I find myself getting into the thick of things already. I just need to manage my time better to take care of many things at once.
Don't worry, I'll try my best.To be honest, we didn't quite feel like you're gone sometimes. At times, it feel like you're only gone for a few days overseas and that one day you might come back.

You know, I bump into your friends pretty often these days. They would always speak fondly of you, sharing with me precious memories of you they have. The few of us would chat and laugh happily as we recall the “Chinese idioms” and “analogies” you've taught us. I would chuckle and tell them that your Chinese sucks. It never fails to amaze me how much detail your friends and colleagues can remember about you, right down to which laksa stall was your favourite and where you used to sit in the coffee shops. That's how deeply you've touched their lives. Words you've said to them so long ago still stay fresh in their mind, as if they've only just talked to you last week.

Ahhh... memories. I remember when I was about 4 or 5, I fell asleep in the car once and you carried me to my bedroom. I liked that so much I would always pretend to fall asleep in the car, even on a bright sunny afternoon. It continued on for quite a while. Guess at some point I became too heavy, and you'd have to resort to tapping me on my shoulders to wake me up instead.

Papa, you used to always call home when you're working, asking us if we wanted anything to eat for supper. Our house phone never rings anymore from you. I miss you now papa, why didn't you call me? I want to tell you that I am hungry and misses you a lot, and that you're the best father me and didi could ever dream of.

Anyway, I better stop here now else I might go on forever.

We have fate. And I'm so happy that at one point in our lives, our paths met as father and children. I really hope our paths will meet again in our next lives.

Until we meet again, papa. =) Take care.

Love,
Your cutest daughter Fenz

i got an urge... not those kind of dirty urge.. just...

nvm...

keep to myself better..

LOL

back from the resort trip. actually been 2 days le. LOL just that i am lazy to update. LOL




took this pic at the balcony of the hotel room


view from the balcony

my first time going into a 5-star hotel loh... LOL so excited leh... anyway, i shall let the pics do the talking... too lazy to type all the words and details...

the balcony there!

toilet pics!!! wahahaha





me lazy liao. LOL. pardon me please. =)

thanks for letting me know your feelings all these while. but i guess its better for us to remain what we are now.

i'm now at Shangri-La's Rasa Sentosa Resort blogging this entry.

i'm serious.

$260 per night. $500 deposit. kaoz.

the internet here needs money and it costs around $20 for a day. ex hor?

i dun need pay.. bring laptop over nia. LOL

be back to update when i am home with all the pics i had taken

okie. done. updated. better than nothing eh? LOL















kidding la.


been very busy these days. i got no idea why. partly maybe because its SCHOOL HOLIDAYS for me... u people know what is school holidays ma? wahahahahaha... faster envy me!!! emily is mugging hard for exam, i am here trying to ease the stress on her. ain't i good after all? LOL

who else mugging for exams ar? wahahhaha... i having holidays leh!!! no school for one month... weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee...






dun kill me. i dun mean it. =D~



world cup this year is so kelong. dun like. lousy. england is out. and david beckham quitted as the captain of the team. no more handsome guys in soccer. have to keep a lookout in the next wrold cup le. sianz loh... KNS

who will be the champion? most likely france ba. the most kelong team. =)





just awake. still tired. still early. kaoz.

tata...