if i said i am not sad anymore, i'm bluffing everyone. i do misses my dad everyday. i thought of his everything. from young till the very last day he is on this earth. he dotes on me too. but i was rebellious to even talk nicely to him. always shouting at him. saying he is bias and whatsoever shit. i'm so wrong. when the moment i received the call saying my dad is in hospital, i was worried sick. for the 3 days in ICU, i stayed there every night just to accompany him and talked to him like never before. i hope he will wake up, but he didnt. he left us. to a much happier place.
my mum is really very sad. i really dunno what to say to console her. seeing her cry, my heart sank down deeply. i miss my dad as much as she does. but perhaps, they had been together for over 2 decades. their love is too strong. they met thru matchmaking thru my relative. they fell in love at the 1st sight, how romantic isnt it? but my dad only wanted to be married with my mum for 23 years only... i'm 20 and my brother is 17. to think my dad left my brother when my brother just got into JC. he haven even got in NS yet. my dad's greatedt wish is to see my brother graduate from university. but he will no longer be around to see him in his graduation robe and that square hat. i did nothing to bring him pride. what a disappointment!
i know time can never be turned back anymore. learning the fact my dad is gone is really a tough matter.
taking care of my mum and brother is my greatest responsibility now. i believed i had grown up more than anyone else ba.
staying at home is my way of passing time as leisure right now. to take care of my mum.
god bless us...
papa, rest in peace. for i know u will always look after us wherever u are...
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