finally everything had came to an end. my dad had completed his journey of life. leaving my mum, my brother and me behind. i'm sad but i had to be strong. to be strong enough to take care of my mother and my younger brother. i was never brave this 1 week. i was weak. i never did much to cherish my time with my dad. only to make him angry and worried about me. i wanted to make up to him, but it's too late now. but i will be strong.

memories since young flashed back. from me a baby to a young kid going kindergarten then to pri school and to secondary school. he never asked much about my studies. as long as i did my best, he will be glad. i never done things to make him proud. created so much trouble for my dad. he had always dote me. love me. care for me. but he doesn't know how to express himself well. i know de. but i never tell him. i guess i will never have a chance to tell him i love him.

papa, how are you doing there? can u hear us or sees us? do you know ho wmuch all of us miss u? why dun u wake up and talk to us? i broke down many times. i tried my very best to stay strong but i cant, the thoughts fo you makes me sad. becoz i really do miss you a lot. now, u are not with us physically anymore but u will live inside us mentally. our wound will heal but we need time. i guess it will be a very long time. and now, u are on a very very very long vacation. you will never be back again. i will keep my words to study well and take good care of mum mum and didi. please look after us. i will be graduating next march, i wonder can i cope on my studies well a not. no matter what, i will try hard. papa, life without you will be so liveless... i can no longer hear ur voice. i can no longer see u in front of me. i can never help u pluck ur white strand of mousetache or hair anymore. i can never bring you out for good food anymore. papa, i really cant help it but to cry. i know u will never read this entry but i know u can feel how much i love you. if time could turn back, i will have taken the cahnce well. but everything's too bad now. what's done cannot be undone. i will live well. i hope u will do well at the other side too.

papa, i love you.








and through this incident, i knew who my true frenz really are. i dun have to mention much. i need a good rest. a long long rest. give me time peeps. i will be back to myself soon.