its was so fun when your toes is being stepped till the skin is peeling off right now. (-_____-")
but overall, really fun. 1st time go clubbing with them. our dear Serene and Ah bird attract "bees". dun have to go into details in fact. but i love dancing crazily with my buddies. oh ya, serene's fren went too.. eh.. whats her name ar? hehe.. and saw sansan there! she gave me birthday kiss and she is real good... when i ask her finish 1 jug of vodka orange, she ran away hiding! (-_____-") i wan the group photo!!!
no much of "shuai ge" there... but never mind... there will be other chances de.. LOL
dead tired. going out soon. take care all~ will upload pics soon once i receive them. keke
10:36 AM
take care everyone.
4:14 PM
oh my, i'm still harbouring the thoughts of Ken Watanabe from my previous post. i think i'm in love again. LOL
i was awake since 9am. i simply got no idea why i should wake up so early and doing nothing till now. and my brain is having some malfunction that i can't seem to get it work now. *smacks head*
school's going to start next week for me. damn. my birthday week. *shrugs* but no celebrations this year ba. no idea what to do. probably reserve till my 21st birthday. more special. *laughs* i'm thinking too much. wonder how's my time table gonna to be. i think my class gonna get lesser people, those who ain't suppose go, go poly liao.. those who are suppose to go, all still around. WTF. why aren't the monkeys go away? and that fort canning cannon. i'm sure my class gonna get bomb pretty soon.
what am i suppose to update somemore? you people reading my blog, what ya wanna know ar? i think i'm getting more boring each day by coping at home. and my entries. boring too eh? TAG MORE leh those who reading 1... i like to see people tagging me... *grins*
get back to my rotting. anyone needs mushrooms? tata
10:46 AM
it is a nice book and a nice movie. i finished both the movie and the book in 2 days. fast hor? imagine how thick the book is? but i would think that the book plot is better. the show cut short a lot but nevertheless, its still as nice.
i shall show u all the scenes in the plot that i like the most.
faster!! ask me why???
Whoever: Fenz, tell me why?
LOL. shiok.
i find the man charming. i know he old la. but all of you who knows me should know i very "hao se" one la... i like mature man.. they turn me on.. wahahahahaha... sorry for using such words, i'm not desperate la... just dunno why... mature guys i find them more stable as in physically and not material comfort wise. i maybe be money faced but i wun go around having sex in order to get $. u know what, i feel so excited right now when i am typing this post. no idea why. i think i fell in love with this guy.. oh ya... his name is Ken Watanabe. in fact, some of you may find him familiar if any of you had watched "The Last Samurai".
see? i show u another pic.
the above pic is how he dress like in the show "memoirs of a geisha". manly hor? i cant imagine someone so old and yet still attracted my attention. *drools*
there's another pic which i oso like personally.
i like his smile. charming. yes. *melting*
when i was out just now, my brother asked me a weird qns and i shall post it to all you.
Brother: Jie, why you always shit but never see you slim down also de?
Me: (-____________-)
Mother: Shitting can slim down de meh?
Brother: can. i always shit. makes me dun feel so fat.
i think my brother a bit siao leh. he obviously not FAT at all. maybe he insulting me. LOL but i still love him.
before i end my post,
Ken Watanabe is who i call a real man.... *drools*
edited*** i received my first present today. from my brother's frenz. xie xie! i like it!
8:14 PM
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been in a daze lately. but no bad thoughts. dun worry. no special reason for this post. i blog for the sake of blogging.
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seriously, i'm into photography. for passion. yup. no doubts on me ok? but people dun like my work. ppl just dun appreciate. i may not be the best. but i got my own side of view also de. i dun follow people thier trends or style of doing things. i do things in my own ways. take it or leave it. none of ur business if you aint interested.
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no one appreciate me. takes me for granted only. forget it. being at home everyday is the best. LOL
tata
1:01 PM
my results above. badly done. due to my pure laziness. mood bad. dreams not coming true anymore.
7:30 PM
I will not make the same mistakes that you did
I will not let myself cause my heart so much misery
I will not break the way you did
You fell so hard
I've learned the hard way, to never let it get that far
Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side
So I don't get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust
Not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid
I lose my way
And it's not too long before you point it out
I cannot cry
Because I know that's weakness in your eyes
I'm forced to fake, a smile, a laugh
Every day of my life
My heart can't possibly break
When it wasn't even whole to start with
Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you I learned to play on the safe side
So I don't get hurt
Because of you I find it hard to trust
Not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid
I watched you die
I heard you cry
Every night in your sleep
I was so young
You should have known better than to lean on me
You never thought of anyone else
You just saw your pain
And now I cry
In the middle of the night
For the same damn thing
Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you I learned to play on the safe side
So I don't get hurt
Because of you
I tried my hardest just to forget everything
Because of you I don't know how to let anyone else in
Because of you
I'm ashamed of my life because it's empty
Because of you
I am afraid
Because of you
Because of you
1:06 PM
i shall update more later if i got the time. i'm sick. having a fever. weak me. damn it
anyway. some thoughts been in my mind for the past few days. not very happy about it. i shall just keep mum. no point saying so much.
10:44 AM
i like the above pic. nice hor?raining heavily now.
nice weather to sleep in.
hints***
tata
1:50 PM
met emily kang twice yesterday. i'm just so nice after all. met her for lunch at funan. was damn full loh. think i'm fatter for like 5 more kg? but who cares? at night met her agian.. for dinner with her hubby.. but i never eat coz once again, i'm too full! staying at home bores me.. so eating is my favourite pasttime for now.. LOL if this goes on, i shall be fat till i die sia... LOL
and YOU!! YES U BLOODY STALKER!! OLD CREEPY MAN!! LISTEN!! stop stalking me in IRC, MSN and all the other places u think u can find me!! u are one fucking chao ah pek only!!!!!!! i had already made the police report!!! u better watched out! FUCK YOU AH PEK!!! and stop putting whatever i used to SMS you in your bloody MSN nick!!! u only makes my hair stands!!!!! SHIT YOU!! KNN>. JUST FUCK OFF!! seriously dun let me see you!! i gonna make u cry!!!! worse of all, i gonna make u forever CANNOT BE ONE FARKING FATHER!! CCB!! argh!!
ok. enough. shiok.
went library with my mum earlier on. at the frontier community centre. big. spacious and cold. and smells.. hmm.. those new house de smell.. LOL. while my mum was searching for books, i explored the whole library. not bad. quiet. good place for studying. and rot. or even sleep there. LOL
my mind suddenly gone into blank.
good luck people for tonight's TOTO!! 2.8 million hor!!!!!!!!!!!
*may dua pek gong bless my parents tio TOTO tonight*prays*******
3:01 PM
4:04 PM
time passes by so slowly when you realised you are always alone. without any friends. you can have friends anywhere you want. but when in fact, u really need a friend, no one is in sight. everyone's busy. out of nowhere, i'm feeling like this. perhaps or so, i'm having PMS or whatsoever shit it is. i dun like this feeling. but no one can actually understand. then so be it. life sux anyway. having ppl to keep away from you, like as if u are plagued with some idiotic virus or wat, like this call friends? i'm now in my own world. alone.
i'm just... as follows:
fat.
ugly.
useless.
friend-less.
stupid.
dumb.
out of love.
alone.
shitty.
idiotic.
no-lifer.
loner.
just so many words to describe about myself right at very this moment.
when you need some people to just go out with you, no one is there. i'm just a no good person.
forget it.
when the going gets tough, it really gets tougher... damn it
12:33 PM
bought a linksys router too. to allow my brother to have wireless connection. had a hard time figuring out. ya la, i know la.. i study wireles technology la.. sometimes things just happen to slip out mind wad.. right? dun blame me la..
finally its fixed. coz i called up the helpline loh. located in philippines. ya... theres no helpline in singapore. then happen to tok to the guy who helped me with my stuff loh. bothered him for 1 hour. luckily he was patience with me LOL
asked to come singapore next time. wahhahahaha.. i know what u all thinking le la. i "hao se". like this oso wanna know guys. LOL.. cant help ma.. while he asked me to restart my com again, my loading was slow and silence was between us so decided to have a chat. not face to face wad, so doesnt matter. i dun understand his english accent in fact. whahahahaha.. but still manage to tok. his name is Brian 24 years old... his hp is 6280. whahahahahahah. the rest i shall keep it to myself and make myself happy LOL
right now, my PC is down. cant online. most likely will be formating my com again. haiz
many things just happened when we least expected. time flies. one month since we broke up. i realised on my bday this year itself, will be 2nd mth we broken up le... do i still have the mood to celebrate? time will tell....
just went to read many of my frenz blog and realised all of them are so busy. i think i am the only free person now. i'm not showing off or wat.. just feel my life being so empty now. not desperate or wat.. just lonely.. everyone busy with their stuff and i got nothing to do.. sucks after all.. haiz
i guess i better get going le.. tiredness is a killer when u are so damn free without doing anything.
2:26 PM
2nd April (sunday)
the night b4 sunday, we went over david's place to stay overnight so that everyone will not be late for the next morning bus to genting. all of us didnt sleep. playing mahjong al night long. went to have our very very early breakfast before we all head off to lavendar for our bus. our bus was 7.30am. it took us about 6 to 7 hours to reach genting. so throughout our journey all of us were sleeping.. like dead pigs... LOL
at around 2pm or so in the afternoon, we reached Genting. our destination. LOL. in fact it was my first trip to genting in my 20 years of living in this world. everywhere was written in malay and i wasnt quite sure of the routes there. i believe if i was to walk alone, i will definitely get lost. it wasn't that cold when i just got there. so as we walk and walk, it was getting cooler that i got no choice but to take out my jacket to wear. this green jacket of mine had been my closest stuff of the 3 days i am there.
thats me! LOL.. i shall show u all something kinky and i bet all of u will say "wow" once u see it...
that was our room a few hours after we checked in. stunned? LOL i believe everyone does the same when they are not at home ba. LOL
we didnt do much on the 1st day. getting used to the place. walked around and played this gun shotting game. damn it. i won the guys! LOL i am good after all. or maybe my eyesight better ba. wahahahahhahahaha
3rd April (Monday)
2nd day itself, we decided to play the theme park. of cos, being the daring me...
i DARE NOT play the theme park there. i'm afraid of fast moving objects and i'm afraid of heights. haiz.. useless me.. yaya. know.. stop laughing in front of ur monitor now!! i mean STOP!!! LOL
but i still did try playing.
the pic cant see me, coz i'm sitting behind. i cried after i got down from the ride. damn it. i felt my heart missing when i'm on the ride. its so damn scary. oh my... *sigh* i useless la!! i know..
this thing above is scary. and i got no balls to play. oh ya, i got no balls.. not like david.. he was praying to god when he was on it! LOL and ya! for the record during our genting, david, our bluetooth cum bogay, FARTED the most number of times. damn it. stink the places everywhere we went.. KNN. LOL
we spent half of our day at the theme park b4 we proceed on to our shopping spree. not much pics. becoz we totally forgotten what camera is for. LOL didnt buy much la.. coz my money was very limited. *smiles*
we ended our 2nd day by fighting our ways in our hotel rooms toilet who to shit 1st.. LOL
4th April (tuesday)
it was our last day, checked out our rooms at 12 noon and headed off for breakfast cum lunch at pizza hut. it was damn worth it. i guess all the food i had tasted there, pizza hut worth it the most. so full and cheap compared to local price (SGD). and off we went to take cable car. i never sat on cable car before leh.. a bit scary. maybe becoz of the heights ba.
below are some pics we took while inside the cable.
i love the clouds there. i think this genting trip is really a relaxing trip for me and my frenz. i enjoyed myself there for the 3 days.
this looks familiar? LOL i was passing by this and it reminds me of the korean show "Stairway to heaven" LOL... i thought of my prince charming... Kwon San Jung.. LOL... if only he is there.. so shuai.. *drools*
i'm sorry peeps. i'm really lazy to go into all the details there. if u wanna know much, go Kelly's blog and read. she provided all the details there. LOL
so thats about it. but before i end myself here. i shall post one very impt pic.
thats all for today. enjoy reading. hope neither of u are sleeping
tata
6:31 PM
suddenly sitting down now right in front of my monitor, a question pop in my mind.
What's life?
do everyone only learn how to cherish only when they lost something or even someone?
why do people cry when they are sad?
does crying really solve everything?
why is there obstacles for us to go through again and again?
why life cant go on smoothly as it can be?
why isnt there any relationship without any disagreements?
why must people suffer heartbreak?
why must people died?
there are in fact so many questions that i wanna post and asked. but for wat? no1 will be able to answer my questions so why bother asking so much? LOL
anyway, i wanna tell u all that i wanna post my genting post de... but... my fren haven send me pics.. and i dun wan post anything without pics, coz it will be boring.. LOL so gonna wait hor.. hehe...
shall end with something nice and cute with me inside... LOL
i look damn cute hor??? LOL12:56 PM
you came my place last night.. nearly created chaos... i cried for the whole night. you never know the pain inside me. i'm all alone. you left my life but you aint letting me go.
i spoke to you over the phone. asking you not to forget me. because i once treat you good. and ask you to remember once there was this ger name Huifen who loved you a lot. 2 years 15 days aint easy for us but we made it thru. for once, you were the one who taught me how to love.
perhaps all these is gone for now. we are leaving each other for good already. i wish you good luck and definitely you will find a much more better ger than me... take care Alan.
12:39 PM
12:06 AM
i'm going genting tml morning. 7.30am. wooshhhh~~~~ in fact, i never been to genting before leh.. sounds mountain tortoise right? but cant blame me, my parents nv bring me out of spore b4 loh. bleah.. but whatever now. LOL they gave me permission to go genting with my classmates leh... so surprising loh.. didnt expect. i am glad they did allow me. thanks mum and dad! hehe
enough said. these days had been staying home. in order to save $ for this trip loh. a big scarifice hor? 3 cheers for me ok? LOL
ok la, i go rot liao. will update blog when i'm back with fabulous pic ya?
miss me ok?
oh ya, nearly forget... i going on sun morning and coming back only tues night LOL. most probably bringing my hp there. so can sms me if anyone of u miss me ok? lpease do tag at my board saying u ppl miss me hor? wahahahahahhaaha
tata
11:48 AM
i'm going genting tml morning. 7.30am. wooshhhh~~~~ in fact, i never been to genting before leh.. sounds mountain tortoise right? but cant blame me, my parents nv bring me out of spore b4 loh. bleah.. but whatever now. LOL they gave me permission to go genting with my classmates leh... so surprising loh.. didnt expect. i am glad they did allow me. thanks mum and dad! hehe
enough said. these days had been staying home. in order to save $ for this trip loh. a big scarifice hor? 3 cheers for me ok? LOL
ok la, i go rot liao. will update blog when i'm back with fabulous pic ya?
miss me ok?
tata
11:48 AM
